Today, however, is different. I can't really come up with anything that I feel is noteworthy other than the journey I have been on for the last
A couple months ago I started reading my Bible more. I knew I needed to and I always had wanted to spend more time, but wanting to in your head is not the same as wanting to in your heart and actually doing it. Over a matter of weeks I began to really ponder about things different people were telling me. I had a Pastor that I really admired for what he taught and how he taught telling me one thing and then another Pastor who I am challenged by telling me something totally different. It was like they were in the middle of an argument on a public platform. So finally I decided that was enough pushing from God for me to really dive in and begin reading.
I started at the Beginning, even though I know they tell you not to. After a while of doing that I added reading part of the New Testament along with it. Slowly but surly I am making my way through the Bible, trying to read it as if it were the first time. I am trying to ignore what I have always been taught the Bible says and see what conclusion I come up with. I don't want to be deceived.
Last week, I decided to try something different on top of that. While I am reading through the Bible still, I am also going to take a book at a time and really try to break it into sections and look for ways to apply it to my life.
So all of this is fine-and-dandy other than the fact that my prayer life has really been suffering. So to help with my studying of God's word.
I say all of this because it is part of my story. It is part of what I have been struggling with. I can also say that since doing so I have noticed a difference. It may not be a huge difference, or even one that people will notice, but I have noticed a difference in what God has been sharing with me and in ways that He has been dealing with me.
I can't say that all things are perfect, because I know they can't be. However, I can say that things are different and I have been able to gain some insight into challenges I have been facing.